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3 December

2005-12-03T23:18:00.000+08:00

boredness...my sleeps are extending,my dreams are brutal,full of violence...like today...i woke up at 5 to 6 pm in the afternoon...as i woke up my body juz felt like sleeping back...haix...i wonder wat if i die..ahahax..my predicted lifespan is until 88 years old...read by my palm...i didnt noe sim lim square close so early sia...8 start closing liao...it looks like my powermac cant go online yet..haix..i totally hate this window com sia....like shit...firstly..so little songs...secondly not all stuff can be use here...thirdly i hate to use photoshop on this com...haix..kinda sick of my life...i can even cry every night..haix...damm hungry...mom stop cooking liao..i also dunno why..'m like starving but i guess i must shd for myself...tml goin to indo...nd to remember to buy bass strings...life is so strange..sometimes theres a happy moment and sad moments...i wish i can someday juz sit at orchard and juz stone...watch the people walk pass me...sadly tts how i'm feeling...juz left out...haix...

i hate myself for wat i've done,i hate my life cos of everything,all i guess i'm a burden to all...sometimes i juz felt like dying...cos i juz dun wanna live my life...totally nd to seek for help...whenever i felt this way i will sleep in a long period of time...i juz dun wanna see the world...haix..sick of living my life...argh!!!..my anger are piling and totally no where to put out the fire in me...i guess sometimes people nv cared abt how u feel...they dun even noe me and juz assume who i am...well i noe i'm not okay...i guess tonite gotta drug myself to sleep..lets see which shall i take..panadol..or tt tiny yellow pill for fever..either way i still gonna sleep by the drowziness...

8 Sept

2005-09-08T16:10:00.000+08:00

hmm...yesterdae came back frm camp..alrite its freaking fun!!!first day..its ice breakers and learn mass dance..i partner then was amira ..i was in grp one with my talented daughter sihui ahahax...then cheer here cheer there...

second day!i spend my whole in planning in the dark..and was joking with my new frends..sylvester and shaun...in the morning..was PT!!!wah super fun sia...got lots of pumping,sit ups and running...my facilitators were, KAILI , WEI YUAN, RASYID...fun sia...then after pt went for our breakfast..cont planning lah...and the second day was AOP approval of plan..and i was Incharge...then went up hall and dance again but this time was with rasx...then was approval of plan...alrite..firstly mr tan[the teacher who is gonna approve the plan] i did my speech..we fail to get approval but we took 2 hrs and finally manage to get it approve andywaes my grp game was TREASURE HUNT...the objective of the game was actually to let them noe and understand the messages...second day at night was veri touchin and veri sad...celerbrate norfi burfday..with christie,alvin,tina and all the assumptionites...we all cheer for mr keh,JC and basically everybody..our line night was terriblily nice...dance here and there,sing here and there...like we are one big family..ouh!at supper...we celebrate gary tt chicken's burfday...sing him a burfday song on the loudspeaker using alicia's fone...then went lights off..dammit shaun snore so loud till i cant sleep sia...anywaes..i juz night up sleep but woke up at 6 something...but stay in bed till 7 then wake shuan then after tt sylvester...i decide not to bath as it was the last day and can really bath at home...b4 all this we had our emotioonal web..sad okay..

third and finally day..
morning had our breakfast...then went up the hall as all the jjc students got meeting...then spend time at hall...then dance..this time i dance with joycelyn...okay this was fun...did hey yeah!!dance and dance till the jjc student leader came back..and did a run thru of all the dance...then goin back time...i gave hugs to nearly all the facilitator cos they are like teachers...i gave hugs no matter its boy or gurl...went back with the whole assumptionite but we all forgot jc..sorri hor...aniwaes went back with joycelyn...took mrt..i was the first one to get off the train...and so i took lrt home..the end

final reflection of camp..it was fun and i believe i've met up with alot of people...the post i would take this op..to thank amira,rasx,norfi,daryl,joycelyn,alicia,si hui,jc,me,family 1,family 2,family 3 , all the facilitators and all the planners...u all did a great job and had a wonderful day!!and they have done each and every sch proud...oh ya!and mr tan thanks for the word cos without it there will be no stepping stone for us to learn...

5 Sept

2005-09-05T00:31:00.000+08:00

alrite..let me first start and say this johan ur concert was fun!!really had a great time saying ur lousy...i'm trying to recall wat has happen in a few days back..hmm orh!went i was returnin back frm johan concert with rasx and gerridine..freak those three punanis!!firstly threesome!!second use rasx and gerridine as sex symbols...gosh..honestly it really make me feel like picking a fight with those guys...i mean who would u feel went ur fren is being use as sex symbols!!this kinda guy watch to many porn...and for tt its true...so guys out there if u have no gf this might actually be ur problem...hmm...teacher's day...oi poloi!to the band rawking on stage..hopefully soon it will be me..then shirin!!!after the teacher's day performance all sc went to kallang for seminar..woohoo!taufik..okaylah not woohoo..anywaes the place was totally full of future bitches and alot of minah...yucks!!they disgust me...tml camp!!at jjc..cfm will have fun there...hopefully to make new frens there...i discover this band i like the vid veri cute..Kings Of Convience - i rather dance with u...i like this song...really can get addict to it..anywaes gotta go pack my bag soon..or else i'm so screwed...i fail two sub wtf..math and geo and both close to passing argh!!!i damm angry wit my result..

27,28,29 August

2005-08-29T11:11:00.000+08:00

hmmm..let think first wat to write..oh! sat morning...went to tt ICA building..cos nd to change the photo and renew the passport mah..it was damm long sia...skip skip skip..okay after the passport thingy i went to sch...took mrt to clementi then frm there took 184...then at the sch gate there saw ras...but at the security there saw the uncle and he offer me some tea..ahahax..ohrite went to the sc room saw yeewen,huiyi,sihui,alicia,lin jie and still got somemore...then i start paint and the first color was red!!it was painful to my eyes sia...i went out of the room with blurry vision...then then then i cant remember liao...orh!went home at 9 something..i was damm tired..hmmm sunday..i didnt do anything much..stay home andnv go out...finally today..i woke up at 8 and i realise i'm not in sch..then went back to sleep cos my back was terriblily in pain...and now still in bed..using laptop to update now...bored sia..

23 August

2005-08-23T16:29:00.000+08:00

yea finally!!got my badge!!alrite..let see yesterdae...morning came as usually blah blah blah..then it begin...mr lim scold me well so called..i dunno who the blardee hell tell tt sat i came...anyways went to band after sch..it was fun...and finally it was fun...but at the end..no blardee comment or encouragement for trombone section...darn..isint tt pathetic...aniwaes today...i came early...did duty for awhile with alvin and recommend him song...then went for the meeting to get my badge!!...then took my bag and put in class then went for mother tongue...okay..i tyco tt i pass my mt paper...27.5 appoint 55...not bad eh...but still it suck...i cant believe i cant do tt paper...then it was math..si bei sian...anna talk and talk and talk then show some website...tml got test i gotta study...then it was recess!!wasnt fun...after recess was geog!!the subject i'm kinda gd at...at least this time i got listen...and now then i noe fossil fuel actually look like hot chocolate fudge...which makes it like manure...then it was science...a teacher relief my class and she comment me and say i'm neat..ahahax...then it was english..mrs lock bring the class to mrl...use the comp for research abt holocaust...then i went back with jonathan ng and tan and nasir...then drop by plaza check price of some vcd and dvd...then went back...then tts all...see how pathetic my life is??...goin off now...au revior

17 August

2005-08-17T20:38:00.000+08:00

hmm..yesterdae i wasnt in sch cos i was sick...today i was in sch but mistakenly..thinking i'm late...today first lesson was PE...did the same thing over and over again...600 skips on skipping ropes...haix...i finally admit i cannot skip cos i really cannot the last time i did jumping jack my kidney was in pain...then it was english..had english test in computer lab..after tt was recess ask jonathan tan to accompany me and photocopy history paper..then was history...told ms phay i lost my file and so i lost all my paper..and i photocopy all the worksheet..then it was music..last lesson..and all i did was trash...ahahax..then it was lab...went it suppose to be math...after sch find cikgu and told her whether i can take the test tml cos i haven learn...after tt went to bangkit with jonathan and nasir...we bought ourself bubble tea...then once i reach home..i went to sleep straight away cos i only had 45 mins of sleep...i realise i cant able to remember much all because i'm so damm pressured with stuff...so dam fuck up abt this...why cant i have one whole week of relax...haix..must see ms phay to do test also...oh ya..on the way back frm bangkit i took lrt and i think this grp of gurls frm greenridge was talking abt me..cos i really heard my name...haix..pathetic like nv see a human being b4...

11 August

2005-08-11T18:48:00.000+08:00

alrite!!i annouce today i'm late!!see lah told joel alr take taxi dun wan...stupid sia they all...aniwaes this tyme the bus really late...even mark was late...hmmm,first lesson...Homec my favourite subject cos i like eating the dough when half way making food...then as usually can disturb li yan saying someone thinks she is hot in the swimsuit she wore during camp...ahahax
...homec all of us did tt sardine roll izzit? and agar-agar...then it was recess...i have always having hard time opening bottle caps..argh!!angry sia..i end up smacking the bottle to the wall to open...recess over and go chase people out of the canteen...then saw this sec 1 malay guy..by the name firdaus...carry him and brought him to sick bay and put some oil on his leg...can u people believe it???he was beat up by people...and no one came to help..WTH...people open ur eyes fighting is nv entertainment....all it leads to hatred and end up both regret...after sending the guy went for english lesson...mrs lock was talking abt "Saving Private Ryan" cos nd to do her worksheet...cannot finish her worksheet and then she said continue next week..and the next lesson math...si bei sian...darn boring okay...i wanted to sleep but i force myself to listen...then after tt was science/chemistry one of my favourite subject...then over..i got the whole damm feeling my exhibition is gonna win..ahahax..
i'm gonna train hard to be deputy liao...i dun give a damm abt age range...ahahax...i think i'm the only sec 2 rite?..haix..i got feeling i'm in the catechism thingy sia...cos dunno why tt tyme i got get tt Asian Civilisation Museum thingy the exhibition of 'journey to faith'...dunno why i got sia...boring sia..

8 & 9 August

2005-08-09T07:27:00.000+08:00

still kinda busy with stuff...haix...sick yesterday...vomited more then once..vomit in the morning second in sch and the last one at 3 am...i didnt sleep frm 3 am...really bored theres no one to talk too...yesterday had tt stupid exhibition..dunno wat came to my mind to juz do anyhow...anys i was happy yesterday cos can go JJC camp!!..but the sad thing how come asnah and lin jie not goin sia..stupid freaks..take out joshua and pei ling lah..sorri if i didnt reply any msg yesterdae due to my sickness i slept frm 11.45am to 3am...

i woke up at 3am and told myself i'm i gonna stay like this forever...and i said no...i wanna change i dun wanna be this quiet guy any more...i'm sick of myself...why cant i juz reinvent myself...i hate my past mistakes..everyone makes mistake...they admit their mistakes,they change their mistakes and they never repeat their mistakes...haiz..i'm useless and pathetic...bored to death...conductor gave their critics but never gave a solution...i had enough of seeing life destroyed and not seeing life turning anew...wat happen to the idiom "to turn over a new leaf"...how i wish..a person could just save me frm my world...i'm sick of being alone..sick of living in a critics life..i'm sick of people thinking i'm the bad guy while i'm not...

Sick of this loneliness feeling

3 August

2005-08-03T16:49:00.000+08:00

aite lets start...didnt turn up for sch today...my body was too numb and weak..dunno wat i do yesterdae night but i suspect myself have been sleep walking...or maybe sleep free-running...gosh how i wish...aniwaes..Check out www.foucan.com or www.parkour.com ...bored sia..woke up at 0645 but somehow cannot stand so went back to sleep and woke up at 1100...and cont my day...did nth much played comp all the way...till now...i guess i will do another update at nite.

Je Vis Dans Le Monde de Ma Propre Philosophie

31 July

2005-07-31T21:28:00.000+08:00

tml 1 of august...somemore tml got sch...sian...people i have put an advertising table beside this...bored..today and yesterdae spend my whole day in the hse...only go out to juz buy food and drink and come back..i dunno got homework or not..haix..i dunno ot wat lesson tml..i life has been veri veri busy..busy like hell..super sian...eeven thought i choose to rest this two days but still i'm busy..i dun have my math book 1,2 or 3...i have none..lost all my books...i dun have my history file gonna photocopy others history file..i lost all sia...Fuck my whole life...oh ya..i discover Meet the barkers are nice to watch...but still osbornes are better...tts all for today..

i stared at the wall
i talked to the wall
i smile at the wall
i cried to the wall
knowing i have suffered frm my lonelyness

like a violin with a broken bow
like a record with a broken sound
i never thought you would say it
but you did.i miss you

30 July

2005-07-30T22:29:00.000+08:00

Check Out This Concert!!

Don't let the world bring you down.
Not everyone here is that fucked up and cold.

28 July

2005-07-28T20:53:00.000+08:00

alrite...today went to sch like normal...i still asking this question...why the hack must i wear spec went i can see clearly...but juz wear...somehow i hate wearing spec...do duty with joshua..boring sia..if got alvin or wee sern at least can joke ard and play ard also...too darn lazy to talk lah today...got pissed off in class dun ask me why...after sch went for tt advance robotic course...i dunno where the hack the person get his qualification...all i noe..i hate him for sure..them act sia..stupid doctor...making me more hate doctors...tml must get ready to dance abit...then can be more confident...but i also nd to rush to beauty world to buy stuff...shit lah...somemore tml got band...didnt study anything didnt even brought back score to study also...if i bring back score must also bring back instrument..lazy sia..the thing so heavy...i wanna play the double bass at least for awhile...this month and next month my week are veri veri close to crash...its like i'm fully book...haix...trying to squeze everything sia...damm tired...today went i fetch my sis frm her sch i saw mr lam ahahax...alrite he drives a car...but nv drive to sch...
even after eating my medicine it still can hold me not to sleep...i dunno wat to do next to make me sleep...i use my last energy again and again..no time to relax if i have even a 3 solid hrs to clear my mind i would be damm freaking happy...heads to fill up with stuff to do and stuff not to do...
an apology if i scold at any of u for no reasons as i'm really juz not in the mood...

26 July

2005-07-26T19:44:00.000+08:00

okay...today didnt turn up for sch...sick lah..got myself fever,flu and the worst of all sore throat...i noe all sec 3 went for their camps..have fun u all...bored sia..here a story..there was once a kid who has a gf and after break up...the kid still love the gurl and the gurl still have feeling for the gurl..but the gurl choose to go for another guy..the kid went even sad..does the gurl noe??no...the kid was angry and felt betrayed and heartbroken...and again does she noe??NO...but too bad its too late..the feeling of love in the kid juz turn to hatred...the end...sian sia..nth to do...how pathetic is my story...the kid must be damm heartbroken and will nv forgive the gurl...bored sia..gettin my specs tml and gettin RC car tml wit gordan tml after sch...ahahax...my NJRC robotics team is Me,Gordan,Aziyati,julite,Chen li..i didnt noe mr lim did this sia..sudden changes..must start doin research liao...
nth much happen today...gonna eat my medicine soon...i think i'm goin offline liao...ciao...

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25 July

2005-07-25T20:05:00.000+08:00

i'm so sick of my life,everyday seems to be the same...angry in me juz flowing thru like current charging...
firstly i'm sick of being myself,i sick of being reminded what i have done wrong before and i have change,i'm sick frm the first day of sch why cant i go to more peaceful class...now the class is littiz...fighting and brutality is called entertainment..fuck them all lah..only wanna see brutality among friends..my legs,hand,body and mind gettin weaker..juz hoping my life would end..but i dun wanna end it here...cos i have not reach my goals in life...gonna get my spec this wednesday..darn why the hack must i wear spec annd my eye are pathetically strange my left eye has perfect vision while my right is not...i get agitated everyday...and juz lead me to violence...juz cant control my temper its juz gone over the range...why cant the world be in peace where there is no terriorist,racist,comminist,sexist and trust me theres alot more...the only ist shd be exist its humanist...oh ya i'm sick of people saying they anti-liar as if they nv lie in their whole entire life...firstly if u anti...basically ur saying ur anti-urself...my head spinning i talk to the wall sometimes..juz not in the mood these days...i'm tired,sick and juz agitated fill with anger and fustration!!ARGH!!!!....sick of what i have to face everyday...the major tryouts gonna be soon...i must be mentally prepared...especially for the interview...i wonder am i the only sec 2 goin for it...ahahax...my class is siao...now then they wanna do the class shirt,painting and stuff liddat...WTF gonna be final year exam and now then they do this...how pathetic is tt...today nth much happen...went to sch alone...thn do duty...as usual peiling does not even do her duty...today got CME and i didnt noe...then got MT how stupid of me telling my life well partly of it in a compo...then recess only ate bread...then science weee!!my far most favourite and veri gd at subject...then go back ahahax...sch ended at 11.30 the went for e rehersal in hall...i cant memorize the steps argh!!...investiture must get ready paperbag wit two holes then after performance wear the paperbag..ahahax..jk..really loh so malu/paiseh.head chopped off...

i woke in hoping to see a brighter day
and till now i have not find the day
i dun noe went the day will come
but if it comes,trust me how happy i would be

destiny does not rely on ur hands
ur not the one who control the faith of someone
believe in ur self and discover tt
ur gonna acheive what u want

i read the letter
and i wasnt unhappy at all
knowing what u must been thru
i understand it and juz accept the fact

dear friend of mine
we do have great times and some are bad
i remember the first day doin duty and i cried
i remember it veri well the person who cheered us and talk to us is only ms phang..really greatful to her even till now

24 July

2005-07-24T14:35:00.000+08:00

okay!!today is bike-a-fun...fun like hell for the riders...ahahax..in the morning i woke up at 8...then like i said to my mom i was late then my dad send me there ahahax....reach there talk to mr keh abit then ran to my class...ahahax...then ride bike...can drift...i was the six runner and i manage to over take one person...ahahax...see lah..now feel like riding a bike now..ahahax..nth much happen this week...band's no. of people is decreasing...manadahahaja got a recruite...but cannot extend the name cos she is diff...her name doesnt have any 'a' haix...bored righ now..nth to do at all...gtg now update later

19 July

2005-07-19T16:25:00.000+08:00

today..mostly did nth except for like studying in class and stuff liddat..came to sch like normal but this time earlier...came out of my hse like 6.30 then reach sch ard 0645...went to class straight away threw some punches on the wall till bleed...didnt do today...cos it was rainin..didnt attend for dance rehersal...got something on at home so i gotta rush home..now in mac blogging...i will not be online for a couple of days...si bei sian sia...goin offline soon...

15 July

2005-07-15T20:56:00.000+08:00

i'm sick today...i didnt come to sch today...haix..them sian lah..cannot go out to buy apple pie...aniwaes yesterdae night my family went out at came back home at 2am..ahahax...today i woke up at 6...not bad lah...nth much happen...think tts all...

13 july

2005-07-13T18:16:00.000+08:00

today was boring..in the morning went to sch by myself..firstly went to class put my bag then went to the latecoming area...theres a alarmclock now at the latecoming ahahax...today not much of latecomers...then later went back to class..first lesson was grammar...ms lina got come...she veri nice one lah...not too boring...then got MT...hmmm cikgu ask us to do a poster...thought i can show my potential in doin design...i never do..all i do is juz laid back and watch people do...then it was recess...like normal i bought tt blardee lemonade..which i dun find it nice at all...after recess was anna chan's lesson...i think for the first time she change dress...ahahax...well yesterdae she wore this dress which look like a nurse frm dunno which hospital...then after math was MUSIC!!the far most stupid subject...theey use the software acid...ahahax...i use tt before...now using apple machintosh so got GARAGEBAND...i think it far more better...after math was HISTORY!!!ahahax...okklah its super fun during history...ms phay is only a bitch went she is angry..ahahax...after sch went back home after goin to mac to buy APPLE PIES and BIG MAC???...okay tts all for today..tml cfm will be even worst...gonna ask my mom whether can i not come to sch tml?

ahahax..ebby..how's ur face??ahahax..tt was the beginning and there is more to come lah...cant u see aloh of people dun find ur joke funny..i notice u laugh to ur own jokes while i think everybody is laughin at u on how foolish u are...

12 July

2005-07-12T22:57:00.000+08:00

hmmm...today came to sch wit joel taking taxi..ahahax..cos i notice its 7.14 and bus yet have not came...came to the late coming area...but there was no duty today...so we all went back to class..first lesson was Geog..ahahax...kkz..i didnt bring my textbook..but still dun get scoldin...ms katherin lee draw skull like a jellyfish...after geog was english...oklah mrs lock paiseh...thinkin her lesson was b4 10.30...how pathetic..did tt yellow color book...then it was recess...sat wit some bunch of sec 1..oklah...i noe there was fight in sch...and alan kho's nose bleed ahahax...after recess was math..hand-in my math hmwk..but stupid me i brought my article..haix...then after math was history...ms phay compliment 2/4 ahahax...saying everybody like veri comfortable wit each other and like so united..then of cos i was like WTH..oklah..then it was CME didnt brought my book...then tt mr lim also dun bother...ahahax...actually suppose to stay back today..but didnt..ahahax..i ran away..ahahax...then went to canteen sat down and ate lunch wit johnathan tan...oklah...haix..why are stuff all push to me...people u thing i wat??superman izzit can do alot of stuff izzit...i'm enterin bikeathon,stupid proposal,robotic,band,sch work and there alot more...to many stuff not enough tyme...haix..gotta complete all this slowly...my life is change...i sat alone at the corner of the class and pay full attention...especially those important subject...MT included...haix...si bei sian..nowadays i'm sick...i dun think i will be in sch tml or some day later...too pump up wit stuff...which lead me to anger and uncontrolable pressure...causing me to go violent and u can see the class board is full of punches made by me...suppose to be like saving money...gonna buy a remote control car and ask alvin tay to teach me to do a robot...bored sia...gonna sleep soon

9 july

2005-07-09T10:15:00.000+08:00

alrity..hmmm..in the morning i went for robotics then supposely go for music lesson..went for robotics then move the tables and stuff then play ard..and now the robotics room is more spacios...

then yesterdae was friday then got band..
fuck lah!!ms lee said SENIOR loh not major loh...
i guess having majors tt y band suxs...
i dunno whether to stay on to band or juz quit and leave this pathetic band...
its sucks alot went i was sec one...they made a propaganda tt its gonna be fun..fuck them lah liar..
then sec 2 before SYF..Someone promise to give a try out for marching band..but guess wat the promise broke...
one more thing i think i noe why GAYSHITs are in band cos the employee wont employ gays
hey who ever gave tt punishment to Ha2,Ma,Da,geraldine,rasx and claudia better take back ur words or else!!
the band will fall for sure...
aniwaes Ha2 and Ma clean the room liao...so Geraldine,Rasx,Da,Claudia..don't need to worry

4 july

2005-07-04T13:43:00.001+08:00

youth day!!suppose to be a fun day but it does not happen...even thought i got everything wat i wanted...i dun get to be liddat normal teen...to go out and stuff liddat...everyday i stay at home...filling my life with bored...not expose of society..juz like spend my entire live trap in a cage...i noe u people dun see it...my life as a kid...by the tyme i am a kid...i noe how to cook...haix..sometimes i believe u people find me strange..cos i nv experience it..only go to town once or twice a year...i dun go shoppin...haix..lets stop this...make me wanna cry...alrite...as normal..i'm always bored...even went i'm busy i will be bored...haix..wrote a poem..its surely suck

like the angel u are
creating lightness in my chest
u were the one tt i nv had
and i guess will nv get

i had a dream abt u
walkin at the beach at night
lying down
on the sandy beach viewin all the stars

i nv want u to leave
nor i nv wish for u to leave
i noe ur sick and ur sickness is serious
all i want to do is to be there for u forever and ever

and again
like the angel u are
dissapearing boredness in my life

3 July

2005-07-04T04:21:00.000+08:00

i live my life happily today..woke at at 10.30 cos my mom ask me to accompany her to go to the market...okay i gladly follow ahahax...got lots of fishes and sotongs!then reach home at 2..oklah...i touch my violin...then play my violin then went to sleep...woke up again at 9.30 saw her msg..and of cos i woke up because this tyme was to eat supper!!ahahax...instead of the usual place at al-ameen or al-azhar...went to yishun to eat...oklah the food there suck but i think the Nasi ayam goreng is not bad...aniwaes tt place i'm veri farmiliar cos my bro go jammin there...reach home 3 same as yesterdae went out to eat supper but at al-azhar..and came back at three is the morning...i love my whole family!!always have supper outside...and sometimes at night go to the beach to walk ard...ahahax..fun..

ur sick
and i will wait for u
i will still love u
even if ur sick and dying

i will wait
cos i noe ur worth waitin for
u gave me a chance
tt i nv tot u will

u made my day
every single day
happiness in me
sayin its not the end

2 July

2005-07-02T19:50:00.000+08:00

today is my most happiest day...VioLin!!!ahahax...woke up at 11 today...use com till 1 then get ready then went under my block to wait for johnston and then...he call and ask me to go to his hse...okay watch spiderman on kidscentral then at 2 went out to marsiling...okay at the sch...i see wats the price of the violin there and the dates for the lesson..oklah..then after tt went to causeway to check...they are selling at $188....then went to bukit timah plaza at christofi and they sell at 171.80 ahahax..$0.80 wats tt for...okay..then went home..then the magic begins...someone sms me...yeappie and she gave me a chance which made me happy and i discover her favourite instrument is violin!!ahahax...tts all for today..arios

2005-06-30T22:19:00.000+08:00

wee!!!my new template so nice ahahax...nth much to talk abt...so tml i will update

27 june

2005-06-27T20:04:00.000+08:00

okay...today..i woke up at 6.45 then bath till 7.00 then 7.05 get ready to go out of the hse..7.10..i discover i brought my ipod but i forgot my earphones!!damm..juz gotta tahann without music...went to late coming area...ask christie to help tie my tie..thankew!!ahahax...went to do duty...i think its first day so its normal for people to be late on their first day...i start my day damm slow...the time-table was change...first lesson for monday is art then its mt..alrite Mt dun quite enjoy it...cikgu tald her story went she went to sarawak at the sarawak river...i think the story quite reasonable...okay then it was recess...had nth to do no even eat..sat with jonathan tan,gordan,farid and sheik they all...boring like hell then during recess assembly asnah went up...ahahax...i somehow juz cant do it animore...my wish now is to be serious in every single thing i do...even in math lesson...its a promise to mysellf to pass my math and go express then after secondary go poly...okay then it was science..it suppose to be lab period but mr lim use it for corrections...orh..then english...mrs lau not teachin my class..sad sia make me feel like crying...haix..but then mrs lock take over...okay lah she is a veri gd teacher..no doubt abt tt...she let the class play puzzle okay i tell u its not easy...difficult like hell...after i see 5 grp complete i gave up...then for reading and bondin me,azi and johnathan tan..went to the library then plan abt the proposal...after sch got band...alrite...went in band like normal then listen to emmanuel's problems...i dunno why are people taking their revenge till liddat....haix..poor thing...no worry emmanuel i believe ya...bannd start i sian like hell i cant play tanabata..its hard loh...its grade 5 u noe...then mr goh scolded me...lucky enuff i was in a slow and chill mood and i take the scolding damm slow...haix...sianess went home wit johnston and sharil..auntie robert gave me and johnston free stuff ahahax...thankew auntie...reach at the bus-stop took bus 171 with Da and her fren and me with johnston and sharil..orh rite...sharil went down at his stop then on the way to me and johnston's stop...we noe da and her fren is talkin abt us...and we are kinda curious...aniwaes went down at our stop and went home...

25 June

2005-06-25T20:49:00.000+08:00

alrite!..yesterdae..i dunno i came late or early...for band...aniwaes MaNaCaDaHaHaJa rawks!!!ahahax...played Mononoke hime..ahahax..super duper nice..i watch the movie..while u people in band waitin for the conductor to show..GoSh!!princess mononoke is a gurl who is aka wolf gurl..bored lah...played over the rainbow..as usual its damm nice and includin thhe animal orchestra version ahahax...okay listen to some music then me and da had a competition...the first one to cry wins!!ahahax i won!!!3 tears!!!ahahax..fun...i'm sick but i juz pretend i'm okay...so i'm okay ahahax..patheticness of me..okay i dunno since went i listen to an jing by jay chou but its nice...everything in my world goes slow and easy...sch is reopening!!!and i'm so looking forward to it...but not for math lesson of cos..but i juz have too...i found back my scar..i had tt scar went i fell and got like more the 20 stitch...oh ya!!geraldine didnt pos anything abt me!!ahahax...aniwaes didnt my friendster wrote i'm a bio-hazard duck...ahahax..okay..people i talk to myself this days dunno y..i talk to myself then i wil also respond to myself..strange..damm...oh ya rasx...u see those guys in the bus who was looking at u...basically..if u see their eyes then u will noe..and how their reaction..boredness....life slowing down...i dunno why...

23 June

2005-06-23T04:38:00.000+08:00

Weeee!!!!okay...cant sleep...today got band!!!i think i make my mind...i wanna be a major...i change the color of the border on the band blog...oh ya...here is the webby... http://aesconcertband.blogspot.com ...do visit it...though its still in major construction...it shall be release in the new month which is july or the new majors are selected...wow it pretty bored in here...
back to my life...i hate my life...stuck at home 24 hr....doin nth...nv i go out with fren or wadeva...gosh...oh ya..bought this instrument at indonesia...i dunno wat they call it..its like a recorder but its made frm bamboo...ahahax...i keep my hair long...ahahax..maybe i will cut it later...once a teacher ask me to cut...i wanna cut mohawk!!ahahax...but too bad against the rule of the sch...oh ya...i found out i'm not afraid to jump on the wall...yeah!!another forward to free-running!!!will someone come join me for free-runing??pls...

22 June

2005-06-23T00:01:00.000+08:00

Tml got band!!!ahahax...fun tyme ahahax...MANADAHAHAJA!!!okay stop the crap...
i discovered a way to noe whether the gurl/boy have a crush on u...cool huh...i firstly didnt expect it to work but it work...ahahax..i woke up at 4 oklah..not bad....i slept at 4...damm boring...i think tts all for now...think i'm gonna sleep...

i sat on a hill
and ponder the stars
in my heart i'm waitin
for the rite and only

i ask myself why
why am i afraid
afraid of what might happen
shivered to the night..

here i end it gd nite...

20 june

2005-06-20T17:52:00.000+08:00

wee!!!i'm back!!!ahahax..its damm great being a single...oh ya..came back frm indonesia..
first went to jakarta..then mom decided to drop by batam...ahahax...first day was shopping...nearly my whole family got a haircut at a salon...okay..basically the stuff there tt is sold in rupiah is damm blardee cheap ahahax...can even buy a shirt which cos 4 bucks if convert to singapore money...okay..one thing i gotta comment...the food there was okay to me but still suck...and so singapore food rawk!!the last day at batam...i packed up my bags and then went swimming...did a dive and a frontflip...ahahax fun...damm the casino was closed...played ps2,pool there...and went into a bar!!ahahax...aniwaes...my family then took the ferry back and reach here singapore the place where i was born a fine city...lazy to write full maybe next tyme ya...

17 june

2005-06-17T07:22:00.000+08:00

today the 8th day without ani sleep...cant wait to die...haix...i gotta cont doin my job..haix..sian..my job is alr stressful then now ...hey u people..trust me i will leave her alone alrite...and alone i mean it alone...haix..i cant see red color...cant see stuff except a strange figure every night...every night i watch the sky wandering izzit gonna rain...where is the stars...sometimes i step out of the hse and roam ard...sit at a park,on a hill and watch the stars...shooting stars...haix...sianess...as normal i didnt sleep...goin for a jog later...haix..nowadays went i walk across a road...i dun even see whether theres car or not...cos i juz wish to be hit...i'm dying frm my sickness of the mind...

16 June

2005-06-16T07:25:00.000+08:00

i walk alone at the corridor
Knowing what has been thru
i watch my life
like a movie on screen

I see you in school
but i juz walk away
1000 apologies to u
it happen this way
and i go again

Faster and Faster i go
i'm running away,i'm running frm memories

i sat on the ledge
thinking what u did for me
u cared for me so much

u ask me to listen a song
and a msg inside
it told me what true
and i go again

faster and faster i fall
i'm hiding away,hiding frm what is true

all my life i've waited for this girl
and i passed it
if only i could ask her back
cos i'm in love with her

i still love her [not Nadiah]

on ur acc of ur sis..sorri...
told ya not to mess with me...

13 June

2005-06-13T06:10:00.000+08:00

haix...sianness...cant sleep and its been happenin for the past three days...i juz cant juz cant sleep...

Faster and faster i go
i'm runing away
i'm running from memories

guess wat is tt three sentence clue???i composed a song...sooner or later i single out the song..who noes maybe do a band preformance...on my own song...

[peotry]
i walk my life alone once..
i walk it alone again..
i'm juz running
running away frm memories

and again go
faster and faster i go
i'm running away
runing away frm memories

knowing what has happen
gave me the burdden and sufferin
i'm dying and i nd a hero in my life
nd a remedy to cure myself

12 June

2005-06-12T18:01:00.000+08:00

My most damm happy day and my start of being happy always!!!!!ahahax...i discover i cant see red...juz like a color blind...ahahax...

my replys..
Da:ahahax..got meh...
ai yah tt one i dunno wat to put.
wasted sia..its a must go u noe...
damm nice...

xtie:ahahax...scary meh..
sudden be...look at it properly it tell a story...

didnt do anything today except played my trombone ahahax...i didnt sleep for the last four or three days...i dunno why...ahahax....guess wat...i think maybe later i'm gonna study my maths...after o levels...i wanna go poly then cont to university then masters...ahahax...so ambitious...i wanna work as a musician,scientist..ahahax...my life change and it rawks!!!yesterdae i juz walk on the road not bother to noe whether there is car or not...

11 June

2005-06-11T21:12:00.000+08:00

today is PCK the musical...i went wit my whole family including my both bro gurlfren and my second bro's band...the show is nice to watch...its abt tt frankie foo..and manage to con phua chu kang....there was alot of people....aniwaes the show Rawks!!!
then went to lau pa sat and eat there...everybody ate...we took three tables and join all together...after eatin we split my second bro's band cos they goin jamming...and my parent and my first bro and his gurlfren...we split at bugis again...my parent took 960 to go home..now at home...my primary sch class mate is havin a gathering...i wanna go..hopefully i'm free at tt day....sianess...i'm dying of boredness...discovered tt if u have everything wat u want..u will be damm bored...

blasting off now...so ciao!!!

11 June

2005-06-11T04:25:00.000+08:00

okay...i cant sleep again..so decide to update my blog...haix...oh ya..change my email add to i_said@yourass.com though i still use tigger_haris@hotmail.com...haix..boredness...the second day...well i dun think anything happen much...sometimes i ask myself why the innocent people die...haix..the innocents die went they did nth wrong...i turn emo...everyday will be listening to finch-what is it to burn and sing along...haix..4.38 in the morning GosH!dunno wat to do at 5a.m...lets plan
5am-wake people up...muahahaha
6-cook
6.30-eat
and so on and on
one by one my future has been destroyed...
rebuildin my future!!
this time i really mean it by change...
arios adios
HaRis blastin off

10 june

2005-06-10T01:38:00.000+08:00

HaiX...cant sleep...still awake at this veri hr...i juz dunn wats happening to me...i wanna change...i slack a whole damm too much...i slack in music and in academic results...haix..sian...i gotta study harder...i want sch to start!!!i cant bear this torturing of holiday...i miss school...i miss my old life...i juz wish to be reborn keeping the skill and knowledge i have learned...haix..sianess...anyways...i change my skin...i totally like this skin...a picure tell a story and i believe this picture tells a story of a guy who has like another personality growing in him...pls dun get freak out by the picture/background...its art!

04 june

2005-06-04T17:14:00.000+08:00

Dunia menjadi reality
aku menangis keseorangan
di dunia yang saya tidak kenali

bunyi sepi di laut
yang saya dengari
aku lari
lari dari kesakitan

ku cintakan mu
tetapi
adakah 'trust' mu pada ku

aku takut
takut untuk apa akan jadi

The Future Freaks Me Out

31 may

2005-05-31T23:02:00.000+08:00

aite...!!QuaCk!!okay..the camp..honestly rite..it suck..its like one of those enviromentle camp like i have gone thru...

Day 1

hmm,there 17 of us..let say out their names..
john
kumar
zul
razif
asrul
wee ???[forget his name]
me
sharil
gary
joshua choo
sahida
clarice
shi hui
jin hui
norfi
kailing
[[last person i forgot]sorri ya

aniwaes our instrutor: kian seng
to be honest he kinda help as alot in the camp...
haix..honestly the grp was like so darn quiet...
then came joshua...OH Y OH GOD mus he be in the same grp as me...
nvm juz gotta live wit it...
skip to water raft...who build raft?me
only me and zul pedal fast..skip skip skip to nite nitez
i cannot sleep at tt tyme actually then i took panadol since i'm sick might as well i eat it too...
then gosh it begins..i soon fall asleep.

to be cont.

27 may

2005-05-27T13:08:00.000+08:00

haix..still cant forget abt it...it still hurts in me...everytime i see her i choose to run...knowing actually i'm crying...i was accuse of something i didnt do...how cld i not get furious and pissed...if i ever noe tt guy..i guess i shd say hankew to him...cos it does hurts my feeling tt bloody much...tt tyme went a rumour has been said she kiss another guy..i choose not to believe...but i ask ard and got the same ans...firstly i choose not to believe her but i did believe her...but i guess its useless...i told her the truth and the only truth but still she doesnt believe...juz upset...yesterdae was the day where i cried everytime of the day...eveen went i'm bathin i cried...haix...still juz disappointed in her...though i look happy,cheerful and positive...in me is juz a kid who is upset,disappointed and not positive at all...sometimes i also i was dead...though i noe theres always another way out of things...haix...aniways today was totally great...got interclass road relay...ahahax...my class win second okay...i'm totally proud of my class...i mean only the relay team lah..ahahax...mrs lau is leavin for an operation...felt sorri for her...
MRS LAU THE CLASS IS SORRY =[...
aniwaes i pass my exam...got 3 in class...sian...but only get 14 among both classes....argh!!!pure sian...

26 may

2005-05-26T14:53:00.000+08:00

Its Darn Fucking Over between you and me!!!!

26 may

2005-05-26T14:40:00.000+08:00

alrite..me and nadiah didnt break i was lying...well guess wat..I GOT ACCUSE OF PLAYIN TIMER went i totally didnt...i cried as i was piss...i'm crying now...why must this be happening to me...aft sch...as i was walking out...i was with josh,nasir,farhan,sufian and poh wei...i was nadiah walking out...then i took 184 wit poh wei...i stop by plaza to buy chocolate ice blend...

it felt like electricity
passing through my body.
juz darn piss
cos i was framed

i cried and
juz wish to shout
for wat i didnt do
as i knock my head
to the wall..

juz waitin..
for it to bleed
and let me die

26 may

2005-05-26T03:24:00.000+08:00

i wrote this in morning...i noe its dumb...haix..i dun feel down i dun feel happy...i live my life juz too the fullest and i discover its no use to pretend...okay fine i guess some of u people noe abt me broke up wit nadiah...haix..sadded...Gosh...life has change...i seem to hard my life and wanting to change it...haix..i guess i still must smile...aniwaes during the napfa test...i did sarn gd for it...sian...i'm at most gonna get silver...soccer interclass is postpone..haix sian..still have not getten ready my stuff for ne camp...darn busy...i also discovered something..i got two comp and three laptop...now using the mac computer while my little sis using the hp comp. watchin movie...investiture for sc is coming soon...and there is an sc gather/camp...3 days two night...i really wanna go...i juz love camps....i juz wish to be in survivor...ahahax....yup miss doin the duck dance...QuaCk!!!

21 May

2005-05-21T18:05:00.000+08:00

another day i spent alone....haix...i wanna go fat..but somehow i cant go to tt weight...every night i get myself angry and not myself...juz buildin up my body...100 sit ups wi no stopping...haix...life sucks!!...dun feel like living..but i guess it no choice i gotta live wit it...today i woke up at 4....then took a shower...ate my lunch...haix..have been plaing comp since juz now....i really have nth to do...1st june got seminar...NE camp is gettin nearer..and holiday too...

20 May

2005-05-20T18:35:00.000+08:00

okay okay...today i woke up at 6.00 bath but go out one hour later at 7.00...went to sch with johnston and joel(2/3)...reach sch ard 7.17...i pass my all my subject except math..while history i dunno...haiz..sadistically...i want to go express and not to spend 5 years in this sch...haix...can someone help me wit my math...todays inter-class soccer was cancel to wednesday...oh ya..i cant go online at all...or check my emails...sometime has gone wrong and i dunno wat it is...i leave my life alone again...bored rite now...its so pathetically supper duper boring...cant go online and for no reason i listen to more emo then punk or ska...oh ya i got sun burn when tt tyme went to sentosa...its damm painful sia..haix..i geuss the skin will soon start to be peeling...my eyes are darn swollen...its gettrin small and i will juz cry for no reason..haix i nd help totally but i dunno wat i nd help...

i leave alone
in my world of fantasy
nv knowing myself

i'm caged
like a bird
without independence

i cried
juz like its rainin
tears dropping like raindrops

the pain i felt
i suffer it
in silence and my darkness

17 may

2005-05-17T15:24:00.000+08:00

Yeah!!today was the last paper...GosH!!tml party!!ahahax..goin sentosa..forgot wat for....now using my apple computer to update..not ibook hor...okay...my whole family is like gonna use Mac item...like myself...i'm using iPod ahahax...bored like hell...juz now after sch went to plaza for awhile wit joel ow but nobody was there..so decided to go to lot1...went to a shop called aple and guess wat i've been fooled by the word apple...argh!!!...i wanna get a sports ipod wristband and a battery pack for ipod...so bored i cant do skin ani more wit my com crash...but i think i still can do wit mac..somehow i will...after goin to lot1 went back to plaza but this tyme only myself...GosH!!!i was walking in the rain while listen to songs sia...bored now...DaRling!!here a poem for u...

i live..
but life ain't worth it
not worth the tears..
so dark, so unlit..

i breathe
but dont seem to feel..
i'm dying
it's just not real

i hear
but never listen
everything's blurry..
though your memories stil glisten

i speak
but never say..
cuz without u
im fading away

i see
but never look
my life is so hollow..
please dun leave me n go..

i can't feel..
i'm numb
because there is nothing
like your gentle touch

i live
but life aint worth it
not worth the tears..
so dark, so unlit

16 May

2005-05-16T04:16:00.000+08:00

okay..i noe i didnt blog for a veri long tyme...cos my com crash!!...now using my ibook..hmm...anyways lots of things happen...mom is gonna get me a violin and laptop...haiz...its boring now...i woke up at 3.30am then decide to bath and now is 4.20...today is art paper...surely its gonna be easy...i dunno wat happenin to me for the past two days cos it seem i didnt woke up at all...i was like dead...yesh yesh..dead...

i didnt believe my mom and bro would support me to be a musician went i grow up...
i'm leading myself into a new world...my world of music...ahahx..gonna get my violin by the end of the month...i think i'm going out at the end of this month...surely its gonna be fun searching for violin...i think most probably..i will go to johnston's father's music sch...or i will go to plaza singapura...

7 May

2005-05-07T15:42:00.000+08:00

hmmm...long tyme since i nv update..haix..lots and lots of thing happen actually...oh ya..i will be update tt videos and songs soon...so check it out...haix..realy nth to do now...but firstly i wil like to wish to my mom and to everybody's HaPPy Mother's Day!!!...

Arios,
Haris

29 April

2005-04-29T23:00:00.000+08:00

hmm...today went to sch like normal but i was five minutes early...reach sch came to me duty area..and discover the gate was lock..so i quickly went to the office and took the side gate key...and open the gate...i heard ms kit lee is gonna scold the person who open it yesterdae and nv open it today...did my duty like normal...haix..i dunno went is my class gonna realise they are playin a fool...as usual the lesson were all noisy...i dun think a study a think but science...so bored...tanx honey for the gift..i lurve u sho much...

28 April

2005-04-28T20:17:00.000+08:00

HaPPy AniVerSary!!!!!lurve u honey!!kkz today..didnt went to sch..my ankle..i fell frm the stairs again...haix..stayed a home..boringly...lie down on my bed and fall asleep...then woke up at two...
spend the whole afternoon watching cartoon,sms my darling...hmm nth much today...aniwaes gotta go now...so AriOs

22 April

2005-04-22T19:47:00.000+08:00

This morning came sch early...and really felt veri sian...fone got confiscated...by my mom...then i went to sch...first lesson was english...did my actin...really put my actin face...and then mrs lau said my actin was professional...ahahax...GosH!!didnt noe i am tt damm GuD...then it was science...did the correction for science review question...as u noe...i only copy question but nv answer...then after tt it was recess...ate alone and sat alone...feeling lonely like hell...she didnt speak anithing to me at all today...sadded...then she didnt smile or said anithing to me...WTH...if u really wanna break up...i purely dunno wat to say...after sch did nth much..then return for band...at 2.30 or so...after tt then change...then shift the instruments...dunno wat will happen to jared,clement,elliot,ulrich,brandon...haix..god bless their souls...oh ya,during the actin i got a real cannin...they use the belt and whack my butt...which of cos i can hold the pain...the teacher all over at the speech day thingy said tt the music was gd...i hopefully the band will get money frm tt mr benedict keh...hmm wednesday i will go to the robotic thingy..goin for a competition and the prize money of $3000...

16 March

2005-04-16T15:50:00.000+08:00

HopE u read this...
i noe ur trying to solve it...thankew for ur effort...but really its no use...
dun say ur not important but u are to me...went ur gone..i guess u might think i wont crying...but deep in my heart i am...i juz dun feel like solving it...went ur sad...first thing i do i will go find u...and went i'm sad or pissed..i guess u dun bother to cheer me up...juz like yesterdae..and i guess there is always another day.. I LOVE U..and dun wanna leave u...and i ask u not to solve my problems as i will be angry wit the person who is trying to solve it...cheering people up is not trying to solve...i cried in my heart...feeling sad and felt lonely...u might think ur not the right but i feel ur juz the right person for me...

I CRIED IN MY HEART
I FELT LONELY
I LOVE U

15 April

2005-04-15T19:16:00.000+08:00

FucK Up DaY!!!!!!haix...i noe i didnt write for a very long tyme...me havin fever,flu,cough....lucky tml no sch..or else die liao...monday got band and nd to see tt idiot...pls lah hor if by monday u try to say sorri or stoping my frm quiting..pls lah i dun even wanna forgive and forget...my simply rules...if i hate tt person...i will stay hating tt person...u make me hate u...fuck up...accidenatlly and i said i was fooling ard..then i got four kick...ur lucky i nv counter...if i would i dunno wat would happen to u...okay today went in the morning as usual...wake up at 6.20...then bath till 6.35..went out of hse at 7.00..reach sch 7.20...7.25 exactly i lock the gate...then do my latecoming duty...went for english class...then it was sci...mr lim say my presentation was marvelous...and he learn something abt it...then recess...went to eat with johnathan,gordan and daniel...played soccer but choose to get near to the shade...then it was Math...pay attention and she said the class was gd today...and then the whole compliment her of the clothes she is wearing...then it was MT...sat at the chair without the table...WTH i want a table...took my oral...i didnt did it well i think...as i am sick and not mentlely prepared...dun talk abt band as i'm still not in the mood

08 April

2005-04-08T19:18:00.000+08:00

i'm sick,totally sick...got headache,fever...i guess my leg injury come back...dun think i will be running next year..i guess i can give up on running...i constant breathing hot breathe...dunno why...my whole body is like burning..juz ready to erupt like a volcanoe...haix..lets see wat i do today...hmmm woke up in the morning at 6...bath and eat a little then ate panadol...gosh i'm sick since yesterdae...hopefully won't end up like my baby brother in hospital for 12 days...haix...aniwaes...went to the stadium by taking a taxi...i reach there then i nd to run 100m..i won third...the fact i am sick so i gd job to me....then it was 200m...i coulden effort to win this one...i start wit a wrong start...got my ankle bone injured again...haix...didnt ran 4x100,4x400...i sat wit joel and listen to his ipod as i didnt bring mine...went back home and ate...then went to slp till three went out of hse at 3.15...firstly tot i was gonna be late...but i was early...played soccer wit maverick's basketball...then went for band...the run was gd...to my ears...went back home..and while waitin for the bus...a whole lot of strips mosquito bite me..haix firstly sick and now adding to list...haix...so bored...

03 April

2005-04-03T18:43:00.000+08:00

hmmm...9 more days till SYF...the new band uniform rawk...the boys get a blazer,Orange color shirt...and black long pant...wit a silver tie... they got all my favourite colors...got the new uniform on friday..then wore it on friday and the band all wore the blazer...haix..nth much happen..the parent seminar...hmm was tiring for me as i have been running up and down the stairs taking food and stuff...then got this lady who stuff herself wit fishball everytime and called her mrs fishballs...haix...my position as an SC is still not confirm..i might be and i might be not..i dun mind not being one...haix...life turns kinda sucky back..i gotta change back...think tts all for now so ARIOS...

I Love U Shoo MucH!!!!
Nadia[H]aRis

28 March & 29 March

2005-03-29T14:45:00.000+08:00

oKay...i noe yesterdae i didnt turn up for band all because of one teacher...all cos of ANNA CHAN!!!...i was so pissed off...and well my burFdaE was sho darn pissed...i'm kicked out of SC all cos of her and a old trusted frend u totally betrayed me...i guess for all the gd deeds for him...i guess this is how he repays back...let me describe ANNA CHAN...a teacher who is peranoid does not have a listening ears,does not care abt peoples believe,the teaching method sucks totally...a teacher who wore g-string in sch and wears a tight dress thinkin she is PRETTY...GosH!!!pretty my ASS...she is a HoaR..a teacher who nd liposuction surgery...well got lots more to go...think wed i will find miss phang and talk to her...hhmmm got a veri bad yesterdae...hmm a frend who betrayed a good frend who always help him...GoSh!!can go ask tt guy wit the name of SUFIAN...shit pissed off...aniwaes i was cooled down by nadiah..but she went to hospital...and i didnt followed but i cool down myself abit more..the whole day i cried and figured out i really got no mood to go for band...even if i go..the theory of the note gosh FLAT would happen...i didnt went to sch today..basically i was sick and really had a major headache...gosh the hatred well still running in my mind...but i guess soon i will get my REVENGE....haix..dunno wat happen in sch today...juz felt like running but have no mood..HEy!!!DRUM MAJOR OR CONDUCTOR THIS WILL EXPLAIN WHY I WAS NOT IN BAND YESTERDAE

27 March

2005-03-27T20:17:00.000+08:00

OkaY!!..tml my burfdae..YeaH!!....dun think i'm gonna sleep tonite...hmm..GoSh!!me and darling played truth or dare on the fone...GoSh!!i got alot of dares...nvm still thinks its accomplishable...hmmm...i'm incharge of the minister...first gettin this kinda thing...but i think it rawk...ahahax...gosh first tyme i cant remember wat i do today...aniwaes i gotta go now...so ciao...
Lurve ya lotz..
love,Haris

23 March

2005-03-23T20:48:00.000+08:00

hmmm...tml got sc workshop...haix..left my handfone,wallet,ez-link and money in band room...tml i'm gonna take it back..today,went to sch kinda early..went to do duty today...not so much of people turn up...onli me,alicia,wee sern and alvin ho...first lesson was science...chapt. 5 again...GoSh...it was kinda boring as its general knowlegde...ahahax...kkz...second lesson was geog...make so much noise...its like having a party liddat...went recess early...YeSh!!!me confirm SC!!!yeah...but must chill and relax...went to the haunted area...cant open the door and so i knock the door next kick the door..firstly no nd to fear the ghost as the will only harm u if u harm them...mean not camera or watever shit kayx...aniwaes when to recess and bought a bottle of drink for myself...after recess was english...MRS.LAU rawks!!...then it was the Old Moronic Faggot,who wear G-string,and totally in nd of liposuction...after her lesson was MT,class 2/3 stayed in class...GosH!!didnt get to see her...2/4 malay student all went to study area and basically listen to their mp3,cd player and stuff liddat...then after tt skip til band...kkz it was kinda fun...except till the end...but still enjoy the end...went home walking as i left my wallet in band room....

fooled

2005-03-20T20:10:00.000+08:00

U've Been Punk'D

17,18 & 19 March

2005-03-19T20:15:00.000+08:00

hmmm...on de 17,me,darling,jayne,julite,hadi,clarice and hadi's sis...we all went to watch son of the mask went the spongebob ticket are basically sold or izzit not enough seats...then we make our way to cineleisure...GoSh!!really dun noe how to spell tt..well cos i dun go town alot of times....aniwaes i also dun even wanna noe wats the name of it...hmmm...we went up to buy the tickets...paid for my darling...me and my darling sat behind the other...the movie was kinda funny...lets skip...on the 18...reach sch in the morning for Band camp...played for the whole they and then it was lunch...GoSh!!!this tyme the food was marvelous man...it rawk!!but though the dinner was kinda normal...me and fadli werew throwing our food out our mouth and then it the food back...and well johnston nearly vomit...ahahax...it was sho fun...then later went to Night Safari...sarah put me and my darling in the same bus....gosh i was force to sit beside...but then i really didnt bother sittin beside her...cos i will sooner or later rite...kkz...at the safari...my and my darling's grp are suppose to split but then samuel took my darling in...hmmm we went to wacth the animal show...ahahax...it was sho funny...my and my darling were holding and hand and went we wanna clap...we will clap wit the other each of our hands...ahahax...then got this indian volunteer...well who doesnt speak english...and so...at the animal show...the presenter said to the indian guy whether is he nervous and then he said..."i'm totally vegietarian"...gosh the people were laugh man...so darn farnie...then my grp went to the suspension bridge..where we kept on swinging the suspension bridge...ahahax...so fun...well the last tyme i was at a suspension bridge went i was in malaysia...havin the leadership camp...kkz...after tt walk ard the forest thingy...and viewing the animal..we stop at the leopard bar and snack...then bought for her mineral water...as tts wat she wants...GoSh!!then took the Tram ride...they talk abt the animals like Babirusa,Tapir and stuff liddat...then went goin back...me and darling sat beside each other again...and then jayne took a pic of us holding hands....GoSh!!!nth to do izzit....ahahax...hmm...then today i wasnt late for band...i was listening to song the whole day...even during band tyme...after the combine we had a 30 min rest...i took a rest at the back...lying down there behind....and again was listen to songs....hmmm...kkz today was kinda tiring but i decide to hold on...
gtg now...so ciao

16 March

2005-03-16T17:21:00.000+08:00

12 more days!!...till my burfdae and our aniversary...ahahax...kkz...woke up at 4...coulden believe i did it again...sleep until 4...aniwaes tml there will be an SC confirmation thingy hopefully i will become one...haix...hmmm...i dunno wat tyme i slept...and i reall wasnt mad at u kay my dear...i fell asleep and so i didnt reply the msg...thirsty and veri hungry...think i'm gonna get myself a drink and cook for myself something to eat...gosh...so bored...i wonder wats she is doin now...maybe i will update again at nite so ciao...

15 March

2005-03-15T18:24:00.000+08:00

hmmm...Today was the Glider competition...and we won...won for the longest flight and overall champion...hmmm...one down and still got some to go...woke up at 6.30 today...but then went to sleep and woke up at 7...went to sch and there it was a long traffic jam...even the principle is stuck in the jam...reach there and luckily habben start...for the small glider i did the one using Blasah wood...having problems wit the weight and eventually done it correctly...got full mark for the distance...but did not do the design much...and so lose out in the design...came back frm the competition and was so tiring...want to sleep and decided not too...
so bored..juz finish eating my food...Miss u lotz...haix lurve u!!MuaCk!!

13 March

2005-03-13T19:14:00.000+08:00

I seriously Lurve U!!!
miss ya lotz

11 March

2005-03-11T20:08:00.000+08:00

GosH!!!!!!so stress
firstly my exam result..
then SYF
then Glider comp.
then Sales For Flea market
haiz..this morning..i was late but was let go cos got traffic jamwent to do my duty then went back to class...first lesson was MT...YeAh!!!sat behind her and cikgu like didnt see any changes...after tt it was science...was darn bored..then he gave me,mei ting,gordan,johnathan tan...he said he see a gd besiness man and women in us...i think i am gonna do a garage sale...selling used book and stuff...then it was ReCess...bought drink for myself and mentos for her...then it was english...it was miss poh's last day...bubbye to her so sad:p...she gave chocolate to my class...then it was Anna chan's lesson...i failed my math...WTF..cant believe...haix..went to the canteen ate first...then saw her mom at sch...me and my sec one fren went hiking in cashew...we went to jln pakis and walk thru forest...i step accidentally on a bird egg...gosh..if only i have notice tt egg...i would taken care and breed it...went back to sch and came for band...haix...johnston veri irritating sia went he noe abt me and her...during mt juz felt givin her a kiss but hold myself not to...

LuRve yA lotz...dArling

09 March

2005-03-09T22:20:00.000+08:00

19 more days till my burfdae...
first lesson was MT...ahahax...sat behind her...she has chewing gum in her pencil case...watch the second part of the movie...hmm then it was Math...went for recess on a normal tyme...and only ate sandwich and drank aloe vera drink...bought for her two mentos...after recess it english i pass my english!!ahahax...i'am save...pass my science...mt..and dunno wat else hopefully i pass my art...kkz..then it was art lesson...after doin my art work..decided to play wit rubber band and shoot bullets thru the newspaper as the target...it was fun...we shot alot of head and tore the whole newspaper...hmm after art it was history...had a class test and i got 23/25...not so bad sia...miss dora ask me to borrow a OHP and well i went to 2/3 to borrow a OHP...gosh the class was like so noisy went i enter to took the OHP...ahahax...durin history i keep on playing wit rubber...and decided to shoot a container which end up broken...went for band after my lunch and the tailor came to measure...the band is veri choosy sia...choose color also hard...haix...after band went home wit johnston,dale and sharil...then bought chicken chop for my dinner and now blogging....

08 March

2005-03-08T19:10:00.000+08:00

YeAh!!20 more days till my BurfDae...in the morning went to sch wit johnston...Science lesson was the first and its boring but its fun to ask lots of questiongs to mr.lim....hmmmm..then it was Math...the re-test for common test was kinda not so hard...went for 5 mins early recess...then sit and ate wit amira and ras...hmmm...bought for her two mentos again...but not the same flavor...then it was geog...miss koh was bullied by the class...till got no tyme to do anything...hmm then it was MT lesson...saw her(yEaH!)...watch a movie called (mummy Jarum)..GoSh!!!its funny but i didnt watch much...hmmm then it was english..miss poh not here...then mr.pun took over our class..and as usual the class was noisy and chaotic..but went back like normal witout needin to stay back...went out wit amira,ras,geraldine and ebby...took taxi there...then at lot 1..waited for her...and she did came....took bus to tt Regent sec...and in the bus (will not cont. the story)...after the match went to lot 1 again and ate at mac wit geraldine,amira and ras...then me and her bought the same meals...ahahax...hmm after eating we all went home...

04 March

2005-03-04T21:53:00.000+08:00

hmmm...today in the morning woke up at 6.15 then i notice i misplace my fone...went to sch wit my injured ankle...paid cash for my bus fare as i forgoten to ask my mom for my top-up money for ez-link...haix...hmmm..today geog test..all was awfully farmiliar...then i did it slowly and skip some question to safe tyme then did the question i skip...then next it was science..woohoo..its kinda fun mr.lim teach abit then...ReCess...still cannot walk...bought lots of mentos but only one is mine...hmm then it was english...painful sia my leg...de whole class must stand...wanted to fall down but whole the pain and hold myself from fallin down...after english it was math..mrs anna chan...make a re-test for the common test..as wadeva shit she teach is all diff then wat is given...then had history test...its fun like hell...kinda easy..after test...i didnt go home...i did my english test in the office..so nice...then on mrs sharon poh's table got picture and all those stuff..i saw shadow in the office and was dead for sure...haix...went to canteen to eat..saw dale and johnston...then ate wit them...went for the test-flight of the glider...the first try wasnt success but they say the second one did...went for band,polish my instruments..and took some photo in band...then went home wit johnston and dale...then now at home bloggin and well juz haven eaten medicine and dinner...

3 march

2005-03-03T15:16:00.000+08:00

ArLox...let frm the morning...Mom woke my up at 6.15...then took a 15 min shower...went to sch wit my injured ankle...haiz...science was blardee hard...told miss sharon poh to take the english test tml...after test went to workshop to do the acrylic project...then came back to class and stay back for 15 mins...didnt noe wat happen during recess..except i was told the canteen was like a battle feild...throwing plates,ice cubes....haix...gosh wats gonna happen next..think better look closely wat gonna happen tml..went back to class..CME lesson started i sat at the corner..relaxin..but also listening...lesson end...the class got into lots of trouble today...after tt was English...get scoldin again...and nearly get detention...maybe tml i'am gonna take my math test...haix...

A DucK With A injured Leg...
no duck dance because of it...
cannot run...
force myself to walk...
and its painful...

2 March

2005-03-02T20:39:00.000+08:00

Haix>...yesterdae night i fell down the stairs wit my leg crack...haix and today went to visit the doc...and here its goes..WTF..the doc only says it a sprain went i heard something crack...tts it i NoW Anti-doc...now i have to diff ankle...cant really walk properly...haix...coulden sleep yesterdae...nth much happen today...gonna eat soon...then eat my medicine..and tts painkiller...blardee docs...
gtg now to eat so ciao...

26 feb

2005-02-27T00:20:00.000+08:00

hmm...woke up at 10.00 then straight away use the com...then at 12 ate lunch..then skip skip skip....went out wit my parent,check out the car which dad wanna buy...before tt...hmm we walk all ard the area of bukit merah...went to eat grass jelly there...then went to library...my mom told me abt my parent's first date at bukit merah...oh ya..yesterdae yesterdae was my bro's burfdae so happy burfdae...my parent treat him to eat at bukit timah...at the Hara tim sum...the laksa there rawks man...spicy and nice...even the tim sum's are nice...

24 Feb

2005-02-24T18:57:00.000+08:00

HeY!...hmm today went sch wit shadow...first lesson was DnT...Gosh!!i think i'am gonna flunk it liao...i didnt even noe got test...then in DnT..did tt toy then move on wit tt acrylic clef note...hmm then after tt was recess yeah!!...again had no mood for eatin...no duck dance today...after recess was english..then it was Project work...United Quartz take the glider makin...gosh..after sch went to the canteen..saw this cool robotic stuff..got new songs..and hope u all like it...
the new songs are...
1:Helena-MyChemicalRomance
2:Boulevard Of Broken Dreams-Green Day
3:I Miss You-Blink182
4:Riders On the Storm-SnoogDog Feat The Doors
5:True-RyanCabrera

23 feb

2005-02-23T22:22:00.000+08:00

Hmm..today in the morning woke up at 7 sharp...but was nv late...haiz..went to do my duty...first lesson was MT..was havin test..its kinda hard if nv study of cos...haiz...then it was Math...HaiX..can someone got fired her...she sux at teaching...during math i caught a beetle...name it shadow...but we put a nick of black shadow...haix..so bored...recess went early..talk to the other sc...after recess it was english..did a composition on Ah Bah...then it was History...the class pled ms dora to postpone the test..and well she did.YEAH!!...before tt the class went for check-up...first check the vision then again then check the spine or izzit the backbone...aniwaes tt nurse check blardee fast...see only then say finish...marvelous man...after sch..went to plaza to buy stuff for shadow...anyways shadow is a beetle...which fly..its veri active at night...then watch my frens play bowling...then went to band...today i didnt get any comment much...the only word i hear is gd..hmmz..played summon the heroes and pomp and circumstances...went home wit johnston after goin to lot one then go to plaza...then go home...haben eaten maybe later check wat is there to eat...haiz..so bored..gtg so ciao..

22 feb

2005-02-22T19:32:00.000+08:00

HolaX!!today woke up at 6 but went sch ard 7...first lesson,hmm science...rawks!!then Math gosh!mrs anna chan ask me to take her book frm the next door class which is 2/3...aniwaes check out wat anna chan wore today...the clothes so see-thru...yuck man...see disgust me...went to recess early then eat...then did the duck dance...but cannot show those SPCA people...then it was geog...hey not bad sia...she said 'i feel encourage to have a student like u'BaHx!!then it was MT...cikgu wanted to give test today but she gave us chance and postpone to tml...haiz..better study or else i am so screwed...after MT it was English...tt sharon poh...hate her...she is so bias...only care abt other class...but aniwaes hu care...hate her face man...but she is kinda gd cos i get us to finish our work in class so tt got no hw...then aft sch...really have nth to do...and so i walked home slowly...my thigh hurts cos of PE yesterday...must jump here and there like a frog...haiz...cant climb the stairs as its painful...gosh can i have wheelchair pls!!!!...its really painful...byes!!

21 feb

2005-02-21T20:19:00.000+08:00

HeY...i'am back...sorri for not updatin as i coulden be online...anyways...got lots of things happen but i guess its too long...kkz today...went to do my latecoming duty and its fun...hate tt anna chan...she so paranoid...little bit wrong she scold...haiz hate her...anyways i dun understand watever crap she teaching cos she does to much talking then teachin...today went for band...played As if on wings...and at the end i didnt get scoldin...didnt get critic...i discover i can play 'i miss you by blink 182'on the trombone...cant wait for march after the test over...and its my burfdae...hahaz...totally cant wait..must keep secret abt my burfdae...so ridiculars,so sian,bored and always ready...gtg now maybe tml i update somemore...

12 jan

2005-01-12T13:30:00.000+08:00

haiz..so bored stayin at home..didnt go to sch cos i'am sick...haiz..kkz being now as myself is veri tiring,stressful and sometimes beri sian...in the morning i sms josh and nadiah tt i'am sick so i wont be coming to sch...haiz,so bored...haben eaten lunch not even breakfast... haiz..didnt do much..yesterdae at night went out wit my parent to bpp then ate at KFC..haz,so long nvm eat at SAKURA restaurent...i gtg now ..i will cont later

09 jan

2005-01-09T16:02:00.000+08:00

Haiz..so bored..tml sch starts..woohoo!!tml got duty sure tiring...then got pe then got band...so bored...yesterdae night went out wit my parent to eat supper at west coast...haiz didnt get to go west coast beach for awhile..so sad...haiz..how turns i have made and still i cant find the ryte path..but the ryte path shd onli be created by ur self...i have change my blog skin...i dunno wat to say abt it..but its kinda nice...so bored..later maybe i will update again..so bubbye...

6 jan

2005-01-06T19:07:00.000+08:00

alrite i noe its been quite sometime i have not been onli and blogspot...because i was tired and all...finally got back my fone but all the contacts are gone...but not some as i remembered their no. ....juz came back frm the sec one camp briefing...i was nearly late for sch...i think i came like 7.20...of cos its my usual tyme...in the morning i was totally rushing,somemore i forgot to pack my bag...aniwaes,i went to sch went they ask me to stand behind the flag pole and obverse on how they do the flag raisin...yesterdae i did the conducted the recess assembly...gosh so confusing...the teachers are every where...and idunno which class to call first...for the orientation camp..i'am takin class 1/2..i think i'am havin a fever...after eatin dinner i think i'am gonna take medicine...dun wanna be sick...aniwaes..gtg now..so ciao

29 dec

2004-12-29T22:01:00.000+08:00

GoSh!!!gonna be new year...hope it doesnt rain at night on new year...i wanna watch stars...todae hor...i woke up at 11..then go to bukit panjang lrt and waited for three hrs..hahaz...then i went back home,go online and saw brian online..then i ask him to meet went he wanna go to the place...we went to gerri hse....the dog so cute..hahaz,then went down to the bbq pit...me and johan went to make fire...then ookin tyme...then went off to play soccer...came back wit no food...haiz...then i decide to use my maniac brain and bake chewing gum on the fire...hmm...yummy not bad actualli it softer then usually it is...then play water bomb...hahax sh fun i didnt really get major wet..till i make myself wet...hahaz then me,clement and johnston went to dry our wet shirt..we took of our shirts and try to make them dry...GoSh so bored...i reali wanna tanX the band for makin my life whack again...my fear of dogs are gone cos of gerri dog...tanx alot and i have no fear of fire hahahx...then went back home wit johnston,dale and fadli...johnston spec broke and lost...then came me hu totally found the spec...i cant run animore..but i'am gonna push my limits of running...everydae i will try to run at least 2 or 3 km...i'am gonna push myself...i will slowly build up my stamina...TsUnami...haiz i wish i could go to help the people hu have suffer frm the tsunami...i'am juz willing to use my life to help others...oh ya people try baking chewing gums they are nice went burn on fire...trust me cos i eat it...

chillers
bubbye...
frm Aris
Renagade

27 dec

2004-12-27T18:06:00.000+08:00

HmMz...i went for band todae..late i guess??Johan thx for the letter i will reply it on ASAP...went for sectional..play singapore rapshody and jurrasic park...gosh i hate the last part of jurassic park...got lots of ugly note...
i'am sick havin stomach ache...been veri dizzy and well giddy...i nd to lie down...
gOsH everytyme i would nd to visit the toilet...the future freaks me out...livin in the world of confusion...nowadae i bearly sleep cos i'am sick and well alot of stuff in my mind...my family got problem...the way i relax myself is veri different...i will run at least 2km then listen to music while puttin the volume loud...i wish to break my bone...and i guess soon...i dun mind jumping of building...and break my bone...its like 1 hr of pain all in one moment...well i guess i'am really not okay...i this pressure...and i guess the conductor gonna add on too...i'am dying...everydae wastin my tyme...every breathe i take i waste my tyme...if one dae u are not gonna see my..i might be died...

frm ArIs
cya around
byez

26 dec.

2004-12-26T16:15:00.000+08:00

gosh,tyme past so fast...i didnt sleep last night...at 8,i went for a run...lets say ard 4km...i spend my x'mas at home infront of the computer...i juz wish i was a bird and so i will fly over and under the rainbow...i think its tyme...tyme to noe tt the world is waitin for me...i went to 7-eleven after a jog...at night i watch para para sakura on channel 8...i juz love my life...the strange ways i do stuff...and well i'am so bored can somebuddy call me a invite me to go out can?...i'am so bored and even if i go out i dun really noe where to go to...

i cont. later

yoz

2004-12-24T03:46:00.000+08:00

Hey!!...one more dae till christmas(YEAH!!!!!)haiz..hey guy!i nd to noe shd i change my taggy to Doodle-board?....hey check out my newly add songs...i juz added
[still] by Rufio
[Learning To Breathe] by Switchfoot
[Something I Call A Personality] by New Found Glory
hope u all enjoy the songs...
Merry X'mas to Everyone who visits My blog
and A Happy New Year!!!
okayz...back,aniwae people...u can recommend song to be put on my blog...ani songs...
kkz...i didnt sleep at all todae...so bored ryte now...i wish someday would be awake to talk to me...gosh i gtg now...
so cya ard somedays...

Frm ARIS

HEyHEyHEy

2004-12-22T13:34:00.000+08:00

WeLcoME to My BlOg..hahaz...oklah hope u all like the song tt i have in my playlist let me list them....1:Everlasting Love By Jamie Cullum 2:Sell Out by Reel Big Fish
3:Iris by Goo Goo Dolls 4:Beyond The Sea by Robbie William 5:Qing Tian by Jay Chou
6:Im Not Okay(i Promise) by My Chemicle Romance...hope,u will relax will juz chillin at my blog stay in tune wit my blog as i will be adding more song in it...i gtg so tata...
frm ARIS

Everlasting Love

2004-12-19T18:32:00.000+08:00

Lyric for Everlasting Love by Jamie Cullum

Hearts gone astray
Keeping her when they go
I went away
Just when you needed me so
You won't regret
I'll come back begging you
Won't you forget
Welcome love we once knew

Open up your eyes
Then you'll realize
Here I stand with my
Everlasting love

Need you by my side
Girl to be my pride
Never be denied
Everlasting love

Hearts gone astray
Keeping her when they go
I went away
Just when you needed me so
You won't regret
I'll come back begging you
Won't you forget
Welcome love we once knew

Open up your eyes
Then you'll realize
Here I stand with my
Everlasting love

Need you by my side
Girl to be my pride
Never be denied
Everlasting love

From the very start
Open up your heart
Feel the love you've got
Everlasting love

Need a love to last forever
Need a love to last forever
Need a love to last forever
Need a love to last forever

I need a love to last forever